My New Life

I was feeling brave at my last consultation with Dr McLean. We were discussing my scan and having a good look at all the tumours on my lungs, not a lovely experience, and deciding on the best way forward. Which turns out to be a scan in four months time and meantime no treatment.

I asked her how long this could go on for and after some time she said, maybe a year. I think she meant that I could possibly go on like this for a year, but I lost my bottle and didn't ask her to clarify. I guess I was scared she meant I had a year left to live. Having thought about it some more I've decided that she wasn't saying I had a year left to go.

So lets get on with things.

I have decided to start a new life. I think I've probably started a few new lives in the past but none of them consciously or by design. I don't know how long my new life will be. Not as long as my old one, but long enough for me to get some enjoyment out of life. At least it will be once my surgeon sorts out my bowel problems.

The main thing is that I do not intend to let my cancer dominate my new life. Of course that will be difficult at times, especially when I need more treatment, but I'm hoping that is some time in the distant future.

I realise having just said that cancer will not dominate, that its easier said than done.

So I have to have a plan my life a bit more. I will aim to do something interesting or new or exciting everyday.  Sometimes that will be nothing more than meeting a friend for a coffee, going for a meal, maybe a movie, hopefully a few theatre visits, many trips to Edinburgh galleries and museums, and do some travelling. I also plan to complete my family research including my father and his brothers war experiences.

I will of course continue with my blog. I hope that cancer will be less intrusive in my postings for a while at least. I plan to create an iBook. This will be mostly based on my blog postings over the past ten years. And maybe some other  bits and pieces.

When I bought my MacBook Pro I paid for a years one to one training at the Apple shop in Princes Street and I'm really pleased that I did. The young folk who work here are excellent and very helpful and understanding. One of them noticed that my blog would be a year old in August 2016 and told me that we would  celebrate its anniversary. I hope to be here to celebrate with him.

I'm writing this post upstairs in the Apple shop, with views of the Castle behind me and Calton Hill in front. What more could one ask for? This is a good life. Let's hope there's lots more of it to come.