A Motto for Life

I should have started my sixth and final cycle of chemo on Monday 2 June but my neutrophils let me down again. Very low this time. And there was me thinking that after my stay in hospital I would be a lot fitter and ready for my final fling with the chemo. But no such luck; the nurses said why change now? 

For the scientists among you a neutrophil is a phagocytic white blood cell having a lobulate nucleus and neutrophil granules in the cytoplasm and the little buggers have given me much grief over the last six months which is strange as I never knew I had them before.

The plan now is to go back tomorrow, Thursday, to try again. But mustn't raise my hopes as nurses on Ward One thought my neutrophils were on a downward trajectory so may not have recovered by tomorrow. I won't be having any more intravenous chemo, just the tablets, as Dr McLean does not think my poor body can cope with much more chemo. So fingers crossed for tomorrow. 

It's late at night now and need to get my beauty sleep for tomorrow which is also Maggie's Centre support group summer lunch, which I hope to be able to attend, with the co-operation of the nurses on Ward One. 

I will finish tonight with some quotes from Maya Angelou who died a few days ago, sadly. She was a fine writer, poet and performer. She wrote: 

" You may write me down in history

   With your bitter twisted lies,

   You may trod me in the very dirt 

   But still, like dust, I'll rise." 

" You may not control all the events that happen to you , but you can decide not to be reduced by 

   them." 

Which I have adopted as my motto for life. So neutrophils will not be allowed to control my life.